Hes Just Not That Into You

I hate feeling like I don’t know where I stand. Like I’m the one thats always thinking about him and thinking so far ahead of what COULD be the future if we were together, but hopelessly feelings in the friend-zone. Finally I found someone that I can actually see myself with and yet I don’t know where I stand. After all the texts and things he says, to this day we talk. But somehow it feels different. Like I’m starting to feel the excitement of talking to him and texting him wearing off slowly but surely. & at odds of not knowing just where I stand with him…..

Are we just friends?……

Or are we potentially more?………….

Am I just someone he enjoys talking to at the moment?………..

Or am I just that person he texts when hes bored?………

….All these questions run through my mind on the daily. I don’t know whether to distance myself and see what happens…If he cares enough to see whats up with me. Or if he would be happy that he doesn’t have to fake liking me. At first it was like he was happy to tell me what he felt. Now I feel like an annoyance with anything I say. It sucks that hes the only person that can fix this issue I have. He enjoys being my friend and thats what he said….But does that mean JUST friends or maybe more? I just dont know what the fuck to think or feel or even do anymore. Because I know what I feel whenever Im around him. I know how I feel whenever I get a text from him. I know just what happens to my heart when he talks to me. But inbetween waiting for those replies and going to see him, I just feel at a major loss. 

Maybe hes…..Just not that into me.